Maaaan I don't know where to start.
I had one of those moments last night where I got sooo moved by a thing that happened to someone. Something that happened to one of my friends, one of my CLOSEST friends.
CLOSE FRIEND. She has been my friend for ages. I've seen her endure so much hardship I can't even bare to stand by and watch at times. But this time was just
I want to shout out some things while you and I are still alive.
Right now things are a blur and i don't know what to believe in this situation.
My friend gave me permission to talk about it here but at the same time, it makes me uncomfortable a bit.
To put it shortly...
her boyfriend took his own life.
And I never wanted someone so special to have to go through this.
I never want someone who means the world to her leave her like this. She doesn't deserve it. She has never deserved it. She goes through hell again and again. I don't understand.
I admire her for her strength she does so much i don't think i could do.
I stayed up late last night comforting her and just trying to be there.
it was painful, i cried for her. I still can't believe it. why her? why him?
we were all on her join.me a phew days ago
everything seemed fine
and i loved seeing how hyper and happy she was because of him. when he was around i felt like a celebrity was in the room, he just seemed that great.
I don't want to believe he's gone.
I don't want to believe my friend lost the most important person to her like that.
he's smarter than that.
idk, i almost just don't believe it.
whatever the truth may be
suicide, death, is a scary thing...
It made me wonder, how many people do i know right now who are in dire pain?
How many people out there are so close to -that- edge?
Who are they, and what time do I have left to say something to them?
Even me, how long do I have left to say something to anyone?
I could die in a millisecond. And so can you.
I'm not being negative
i'm being realistic.
I don't believe in suicide, and I wish I could stop everyone from doing it.
All I can do is invite you in and to let you know that I'm here.
I know you know where this is going but dammit I need to say it and I need you all to take me seriously.
I'm here for everyone. I want to help people the way my friend does. I want people to talk to me if they truly need someone to talk to. I want them all to know that I care. Whether you are a distant friend, a stranger, or whatever. I'm here for all.
My friends here, I love you all. I hope none of you have such a thing set into your minds.
you think about your family and the ones around you.
if anything, think of me, and think of how much i'll hurt. and I -WILL- hurt.
I barely knew my friend's boyfriend, but it hurt that he'a gone. For many reasons yes, all in all it still hurts.
he was a bright guy, smart, he always knows what to say.
Seeing my friend in unexplainable pain, it makes me not want to see that in anyone. Ever.
Just know you are -NOT- alone.
fight and never give up.
i don't care how impossible your situation/problem is, you're not alone, and there -is- a way out. Don't think death is the easy way out, it's not. You don't know the afterlife. Don't convince yourself that it will be a beautiful place...
I just want to help. I want to help anyone and everyone as much as I can.
blow up my phone
however you talk to me, just do it. We can talk about anything.
Death is a terrible thing. I don't want such pain in my life knowing I could have talked the person out of it. It scares me so much. It scares me knowing that there are people i know
who have tried, but failed. Imagine if it worked, and they died, I wouldn't have met them...
I wouldn't have gotten to enjoy them and cherish them the way I do today.
I just want to hug them when this comes to mind.
So please just open up and don't by afraid. I love you all very much, and I do care about you and your lives. I do truly.
I would like to add my friend--->
if you plan to talk to her or anything, please be kind. She is as friendly as me and even friendlier. Pray for her please she needs as much support as she can get.
I cannot believe I am doing this. _ -----_
From this broski
So, like the title says, I'll be giving away free drawings
of your ocs.
Only to the first 10 of you who ask for 'em, though!
Some quick rules that I feel I should mention:
1.) No more than two of your ocs...
(Note:I won't draw someone else's character(s) for you.
That includes any character(s) from tv shows/books/etc.
Only your own ocs, guys.)
2.) I am not drawing a character being told by a description and not an image.
3.) I cannot stress this enough, but if you give me an image WITHOUT color please be a dear and tell me what colors to use.
5.) If you don't like the finished result, that's not really my problem. If you ask me to draw something for you, realize that it'll be in my style, not yours.
6.) If you ask for a drawing, you have to continue this journal on your own page.
(You can edit it however you want, as far as I know)
I wont't be getting started on these until the 10 slots are -full-.
-Dios- te bendiga.~